Big Fat Skinny Girl

Growing up I played a lot of soccer, some lacrosse and swam. But I had the misfortune of having crooked kneecaps. They were titled at an angle and would cut my cartilage up when I was playing sports. I've had three knee surgeries to have it fixed and while I can certainly do most things I want to do, some things are hard for me - like deep squats, swimming and biking. And every once in awhile I have a random knee blow-out like yesterday.

Between the weight gain and the knee issue, today leaves me feeling extremely frustrated. This diet just isn't working. I'm going to go ahead and cut cheese out of my diet because I know it's very caloric and fattening. But that pains me for two reasons. First of all, I love cheese. It's delicious and it's makes this boring low carb diet more enjoyable. I also find it to be very filling. And when I'm either not full or not satisfied from a meal I'm way more likely to give in and eat delicious carbiness. The second reason is that this edges me back toward the route of counting calories. I did that strictly for about 3 months and it was a pretty miserable past time. Not only did I not lose weight but I continually obsessed about calories-in-calories-out and it took over my life.

Right now I'm feeling like there's nothing that works.

Today's Breakdown

Goal Weight: 105 lbs.
Current Weight: 117.6 lbs

Food
Breakfast: Greek Yogurt + Apple + Lots of Cinnamon
Lunch: Specialty's Spinach and Bacon Salad
Dinner: Turkey Burger (no bun) + Salad with Tomatos, Cheese
Snacks: 1 Dark Chocolate Bar, Low Carb Protein Bar
Water: 4 bottles
Soda: None!

Exercise
Crossfit WOD: Row 500m, 150 Double Unders, 50 Burpees for Time (11:02)